2010年3月30日 星期二

Can't Be Closer.

除了長久的在一起
我想 我們的距離不可能再更親密或更近了
深深凝望 深深凝聚起情感 投注在眼眸裡
十指緊扣 雙手交纏 感受兩人呼吸的重量
每片刻的慢慢用心去深深擁抱 用唇覆蓋彼此 深吻的時刻
還有什麼能再拉近我們兩個的距離?

(或許是長久的了解彼此 溝通 了解對方吧~ )

在情感的深度中 我盲了 深深沉澱在幸福裡 時間永恆的延伸 無止境.

與你 這些並不是我的第一次
但卻有初體驗的感覺般顫抖 震撼心靈 或許這就是了吧.

除了"莎郎嘿"..我還想對你這麼說:


항상 너의 곁에 있어줄게..
i'll be there for you always

想長久的保持這樣天堂般的境界.

2010年3月8日 星期一

生日禮: 愛的真諦?

"I won't blame you that you left, because I understand all this time..

Now our time is up and you have to go. But there is still the feeling left in my heart.
Even though I miss you, you would not know. I cannot speak it out. All I can do is to miss you..nothing else....I accept the reality. But I will not forget the good time we had. No matter how lonely I would feel, I have to move on..." - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MwzbQT0CA1Y

if that is how u feel...... i jsut want to hold u tight n never let go......................... i dont care..... just wana flow my care thru u. to you....... as long as u open ur arms n accept it.

KwangWoo: I do not want to answer...... you can think i am coward...or jerk.. whatever......=(
just think what I told you before... I showed my true feeling....I don't want to answer that question
sigh........in my life... love was always tragic to me... please let me stay as your friend...please please...

wont u even have some hope...?
wont u even let some love in..?

there's a phrase that ppl say... about love.. the saddest love..
but i dont think that's the saddest........
"the furthest distance in the world is that when im standing in front of you, yet you don't know that i love you"

原來你不是不夠喜歡我 是因為這樣對你也太痛苦
i finally realize that it's not cuz u dont like me enough so u wana stay as ai mei.... the truth is that it's too painful for you too...............

KwangWoo: Dong seng
I don't know what to say.... except 미안해...mi an hae

why......why do u choose to say mi an hae...
instead of sarang hae.........hahahahhahahah
one word difference... one gives heaven, one gives ......
so much regret.... so much sadness....... or even jo wa hae...

KwangWoo: 동생 좋아해....but 미안해 so much... 친구로 지내자...제발
dongseng.. jo wa hae.......... but mi an hae so much.. please.. lets stay as friend.... =(

..............(L)........i felt you.
........ :' (

...........i want to hug you......... deeply..............
can i go find u...?

KwangWoo: you can't...if you hug me or give me your heart again,,, i can't control myself anymore... I want to leave happily, lightly as much as i can... help me dong seng...
please forget everything... and treat me as your other friends... can you ?

.............*cries*

i'll try... for you
i'll try......

KwangWoo: its hard... its hard to me... but time will resolve all this things...

u're the most beautiful memory of mine..

KwangWoo: me too... :'( may be you would find more awesome guy than me... and he would make you happy.....

i wish time never passes.....i wish time never changes... but over 2 years... it's too hard...
if time nvr changes someone.. u'll still b the same.....

i wish i stayed in ai mei..........................ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

KwangWoo: 미안해요 (sorry)

u know what's the best gift from u....? your love.
thinking of it... will be my lifelong gift.

KwangWoo: (dead)

mi an hae..
struggle struggle struggle....

^.^" ...?
can we...really not go bak..?
sigh.. im so stubborn even if i know we shouldnt..
not even think about it..

KwangWoo: I gotta do some work... before I go.. I want to say... 동생 사랑해 and 미안해... do me a favor... please lets stay friend...(L)

...............(f).......... ...(cry)

KwangWoo: wo ai ni... right??  :)

......我 wo 愛ai 你ni. ..(L)...

KwangWoo: I love you too...동생 sorry... I am a coward... I will be more mature as I do training in the military...

...... no.... nonono.. *shakes head madly*.....
i love you.
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一個只能相愛卻又不能相守的人,只能默默的去愛,默默的為彼此祝福。因為當我們需要關懷和呵護的時候,對方總不可能在身邊. 等待這樣一個只能相愛卻又不能相守的人,需要一份勇氣,因為我們知道,這樣的愛是偉大的,同時也應該是無私的,更是神聖的,等待這樣一個相愛卻不能相守的人,還需要一顆真誠和寬容的心,把所有的委屈及傷痕都隱藏起來,在互愛的同時,應該考慮到愛的責任,愛可以讓人得到很多很多,也可能失去很多很多,這就是愛的代價,愛需要付出,但不一定能夠得到回報,得到的也不一定是真誠的回報。

然而割捨這份來之不易的遲到的愛,卻又是那麽的不忍心,那麽的傷痛,曾經全心編制的愛是沒有結果的愛,只能遠遠的遠遠的看著,默默的默默的愛著,心中的那份傷痛,又怎麽能夠釋懷呢?唯有這麽小心奕奕的愛著,帶來的卻又是兩方面的苦痛,無法割捨卻又無法放肆的相愛,這是一件多麽讓人傷感的事啊。所以雙方只能是彼此之間深深愛著這樣一個只能相愛卻又不能相守的人;只能在遙祝他每時每刻都幸福,每分每秒都平安,這就足夠了,不要祈求太多,也不敢奢望太多。

愛一個人不容易,忘記一個人更難,是啊,愛一個人是很苦的很苦的事,想一個人是很累的很累的事,等一個人是很傻的很傻的事,為什麽我們卻不能拒絕這樣的相思?
為什麽我們心甘情願無怨無悔?為什麽我們卻如此依然癡迷不悟?

劉墉說過:真愛是過程,而不是目的。一個未能完成或無法完成的故事;也許是一個缺憾,但也可光華美麗。

2010年3月1日 星期一

收藏 [Collection]

Too much has been going on lately; it gives me a false impression that it's been a long time when I've been going through a lot.

In this 1 week... I lost him, I gained you all, I discovered your feelings, I learned a lot more about myself...and my changes in situations.

In this week, I've had ups and downs... giggly laughs when I'm with you, had extremely moody and quiet/calm moments when all of us are in the same room; I've felt as grey as the storm.

In this week... I realized until today that I haven't contacted my parents over 2 weeks. (My mom said so.)

She asked me: so you're not really telling us all the 'big' things that happened?
What I'm worrying is whether or not you can handle these emotional changes alright.

I mean, if you can truly overcome these emotional changes calmly, that means you are growing. Surely though, it's going to hurt. Is this a setback for you?

Thinking about what she said, I thought to myself and replied:
I've always tried to remain optimistic while dealing with these things, although the emotions I'm facing may not be the smoothest to deal with. It's not a setback, it's part of growth, and I don't regret it... these are the collections of my growth along life.

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蕭敬騰----收藏

我能想像 遠方的路旁有一雙目光


外套右邊肩膀上 還留著 一點香
用失眠哀悼過往 回頭看 為什麼 會退讓
或許人們都一樣 越受傷 越健忘
追尋煙火的路上 或流浪 或碰撞 還要闖

我能想像 在遠方的路旁 會有一雙目光
是否一樣 都帶著昨天的傷 試圖想要遺忘
我能想像 對愛情的信仰 注定得忙了又忙
我的眼框 如果有悲傷那是過程中 的收藏

手指敲在琴鍵上 那情緒 有點DOWN
人影交錯的廣場 或悲傷 或失望 卻不放

躺一躺 看月光
在經過那些離散是否一樣 夠堅強

我收藏 我的淚 妳的光
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I collected you, your thoughts, your emotions; ours, collectively.