2009年12月17日 星期四

昊恩家家 顏色

記得初次接觸昊恩家家的音樂 是從 "不自由" 這首充滿 Jazz曲調&憂鬱的情感的歌開始的。

儘管現在的我想要去追尋當時被他們感動&接二連三的下載歌曲的起點,事到如今要想起初衷難免有點模糊。
但我能肯定的是,他們的聲音深深的撫動著聽眾的心。

想了想,我其實很少去花錢支持喜歡的團體&歌手的專輯。。。但這樣不合法的舉動雖說是為一個"窮"學生省錢,但在心底總是對這些優秀的音樂人過意不去。

最近時常的Youtubing讓我找到了現場的昊恩家家這首現場的 "顏色" ,
光是昊恩吉他中開場的一段雙和絃就緊緊扣著我的耳朵....緊緊的扣住我對吉他無法解釋的迷戀,整首歌更唱到了心坎裡去... !

(不知道為什麼 我的blogger撰寫版本沒有提供video連結...請各位讀者將就連結)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bJxrzJEOqTs

多虧了這篇現場的版本
我也才能更了解昊恩音樂的故事背景,進而去體會昊恩&家家呈現那糾纏的歌聲&情感深度,實在是非常intense又扣人心弦。常常詞窮的我,在這裡打著網誌,想要一而再再而三的兜出形容的詞句都不夠表達我對這首歌曲的著迷。
不,應該要說,對不管是輕鬆,可愛,憂愁,深情,思念,各種情感的表達;昊恩家家都能完整呈現最美的音色&表演感到深深的喜愛。

多虧大家上傳到Youtube電視中的片段,我才看得到現場唱 "我願意", "月亮代表我的心" 等歌曲的家家,還有彈著我很喜歡的吉他的昊恩。

要如何看出我很喜歡一個東西呢? 
除了傾注心神的去聆聽,凝視;深受感動的瞬間,微笑是會不停的在嘴邊綻開的。

在這個space打網誌對我的意義而言,是分享那迴盪在心中對事物的激賞,打出那在現實中說不出的深邃話語。。。就算淺拙的言語無法表達什麼,我也要試著描述。

現在該想想要如何支持我欣賞的音樂&專輯的時候了...
(回家後立刻去買CD!) XDDD

出色的專輯 "Blue In Love",推薦給大家。

兩位親愛的朋友,請繼續傳唱你們的歌謠,讓更多人聽到你們美妙的聲音&合作!

如想更了解昊恩家家的故事&背景,歡迎到下列連結詳讀!

更多連結:
http://blog.yam.com/haoenjiajia 昊恩家家天空部落網站!

2009年12月13日 星期日

[Dec] 學期尾聲; 年步入尾聲

沒有什麼比交了最難熬的功課更輕鬆的事了。

今年我只有一個final exam,French 202,也要完成College of Liberal Arts (CLA) 的 foreign language requirement了。

我該繼續拿法文課嗎?

從TES學法文時開始,一直到了IB,我總是在為考試作準備,語文的進步到是有點
原地踏步。 因為沒有固定的教材,只有東補西補文法和字彙。

現在,FR202系統化的教完了好多主題式的字彙和表達詞句。
可是我怎麼還是覺得,有時學習到了一個程度,總是有跨不過更進一步鴻溝?

是我不夠努力吧/嗎?

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老實說,這學期我感到糟透了。
感覺我的動力退回到了高中那種苟且過日,臨時抱佛腳的交作業程序...搞得我好不狼狽。

希望這一切下學期都可以改善!
我需要回家找找平靜....找回動力,重新出發。
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說到這裡,我。好。想。念。台。灣。的。卡。拉。o。k。啊!!!!!!!!!
好想好好唱唱歌。

也想好好逛逛&看看夜市。。。好好坐捷運,玩玩一日遊~
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A Winter Playlist;

[Melancholy]
1. Wintersong - Sarah Mclachlan.
2. Vienna - The Fray
3. Gravity - Sara Bareilles
4. City - Sara Bareilles
5. Angel - Sarah Mclachlan

[Warm, Thankful, Hopeful (?)]
1. Fields of Gold - Eva Cassidy
2. Ice Age - Pete Yorn
3. Fireflies - Owl City
4. Heal Over - KT Tunstall
5. Waiting For the World to Fall - Jars of Clay
(as pessimistic as the title seems, it sounds hopeful and gives the sense of a 'new horizon')

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I've also found a lot of GOOOOD French music recently!
Starting off within course contents, I discovered Les Nubians.
(Sorry, I still don't know how to post videos yet... I need someone like Justen to help me :P )
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h-h0cJw4rcw

then later explorations... all around Les Nubians led me to many good and multicultural music.

Many nations now are becoming increasingly multicultural, for France it's partly reflected on their music.

2009年12月10日 星期四

你怎麼會淪落到這樣子 [?]

"Ever since the start of my semester," she looks up into the ceiling, "it's been a mess..." and sighs.

"Why? What's preventing you from doing as well as you did back then?" I asked.

"I'm not sure," she said. That sense of helplessness surrounded me and made me feel weak.

"I forgot when...if it's around high school or something. I felt I'm always at the edge of last minutes when turning in papers, projects and making presentations. My professor also said, [It seems like you've already stopped trying when you haven't even give it your best!] I tried at times to try prevent that... but somehow when I leap to catch up, I always end up needing to make up that little bit more to make it complete and done."

I listened to her closely, didn't know what to say.

"and you know my professor, she said she's going to make sure that I'll
do extremely well for the next semester's courses with her?" She laughed dryly.

"Oh, really. Well, isn't that a good thing? Eh.. maybe? She's supervising you."

"Truth is, she's more than worried about my performance in this class.
And you know what, even if I finished that damned paper, she's so disappointed that she said she can only
 give me a D." She talks on, casually.

"Hmm." I'm lost in thought.

"But then she said if need be, she'll lock me up in her office and make sure I do every step and make progress. It's like mommy supervising her child to do homework." She laughed, again. I can't think of anyone more optimistic and cheery when her professor has said all this. Yet, if this keeps her going?

"So what are you going to do about your paper?" I asked, trying to hide the anxiousness in my tone of voice. After hearing all this, I'm not sure if she'll make it.

"Just try my best, and make those 15 pages?" She finished the phrase with a serious look.

"I fucking want to get this done." She added lastly.

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The next day, she told me that after stuffing some "American trash food" for late dinner at 10:20, she reworked her paper longer, aiming for the 15 pages goal.

I wish her all the best.

2009年12月5日 星期六

Pour lui.

還不到的緣份 落在這或許恰好

就像友愛的擁抱 契合的剛好

總希望與你心貼心的談話和分享

卻感覺有著普通朋友般的距離…

想告訴你 在回憶裡激盪 表達不出的心意

我總保留著在夜晚微涼的公園裡 在鞦韆上哼歌的回憶

你不經意哼起的曲調 都在我耳裡充滿旋律記憶

細柔的嗓音哼唱小情歌 是腦海裡反覆溫習的音色

時時刻刻 當你需要 這裡為你保留特別的擁抱

你是我放心底的朋友, close to my heart.

2009年11月21日 星期六

金色琴弦 同人圖文 "On Fire" [火原x香穗] Part 2

Hearing Hihara’s trumpet, Kahoko stood up feeling melancholy too.

Azuma looked at her thoughtfully. No longer teasing her or reacting to what just happened, he paid attention to his friend’s trumpet instead.

Hihara…you really like her that much eh? This sad tune… so unlike you. Thought Azuma.

Kahoko stepped closer to the bars to take a look at the boy who stood there, playing his trumpet sadly.

Hihara sempai… Kahoko backs up slowly, then ran by Azuma straight to the boy she promised to walk home together. She wanted to explain everything – her helplessness, her care for him, most of all – let him know that she cares about him a lot more than he thinks.

Hihara opened his eyes, drawing himself away from the emotions and noticed the time on the school clock tower reading 4:35pm.

The cheerful boy sighed gently, stopped playing his source of happiness…

Since we met, you’re the reason why I play so energetically. But now, I play emptily.

Just as he thought this way, he heard a girl panting from afar. He turned to look at the source of such nervous panting and found a color of red in his sight…

Hi-Hi-...Kazuki-sempai!” The girl cries loudly as she loses all momentum, resting perfectly into Hihara’s chest.
   Kaho-chan…! Widening his eyes, Hihara could barely react, but he opened arms to embrace the red haired girl and found her to be his love.


   "Kazuki-kun… ano, gomenasai…!" Kahoko closes her eyes tightly as she apologizes.
   "Kaho-chan… why, don’t cry. I don’t want to find my girl crying in my arms… AHH what am I saying, I mean, I-I…I mea- I don't want to let girls cry..eh.." Finding himself guilty of speaking his heart, Hihara immediately starts to stutter uncontrollably.


   Hihara-ah, Kazuki-sempai… Kahoko was stunned by his words and blushed shyly. This is the first time she finds his words and stuttering with such warmth and cuteness. She blooms into a beautiful smile.

   Hihara, seeing her reaction blushed and smiled… he took a deep breath and reached for her hand.


Ah!!…Sempai… Kahoko, feeling Hihara’s warm and comforting hands, looks up at him while turning even redder.

“Kaho-chan looks like a blushing cherry-blossom… how, how pretty.” Hihara confesses with more confidence as he held her hands with two hands now, and firmer – looking into her eyes, he saw the way she wanted to speak to him about the incident just now with Azuma.



“Kazuki-sempai… let’s-let’s go, we promised.” After a long while of gazing, Kahoko lowers her head shyly after Hihara’s eyes met hers for such a long moment of time. But her hands lowered slowly, still holding his and gave him a sweet smile.


What’s this feeling… oh my, Kaho-chan..! My heart is expanding with heat and a wave of sweetness like honey…! Hihara’s face still burns, not able to calm down from Kahoko’s response to everything he did.


What am I doing…but more importantly, what am I feeling? I felt so happy explaining everything. Wait, but I haven’t mentioned about Azuma or really EXPLAINED to Kazuki-sempai… but I’m holding his hand…!

Azuma watched the two from above until Kahoko held onto Hihara’s hand and lowered it gently. He turned around, smiled in a disappointed way and disappeared under the sunset.

By this time, the overjoyed 2 calmed at each other’s hands holding each other, began to gaze deeply into each other’s eyes, even if it seems difficult in such bright sunshine.




金色琴弦 同人圖文 "On Fire" [火原x香穗] Part 1

金色琴弦 同人文 音樂想像系列
"On Fire” by Switchfoot"


火原和樹x日野香穗子
Hihara Kazuki x Hino Kahoko

It’s another leisurely Friday,
Seiso Academy students are waving goodbye to each other in the mixture of orange and red sunset color…

A tall third year student with lime colored hair is running in small steps to catch up with the apple colored hair girl in front of him…

     "Kaho-chan…!" the cheerful voice calls the girl gently.
     "Ahleh? Hihara-Sempai!" Hino Kahoko turns over in surprise,
     "Are you going home too?" Smiling politely, she asks casually
     "Yeah, well, band practice is cancelled for today…
     I can finally go somewhere on a Friday afternoon! Does Kaho-chan want to go home together…?"

      Hihara touches his nose in slight nervousness, hoping that Kahoko
        will agree to let him have this chance to walk her home.

     "Ah, sure, sempai!" She smiles brightly in reply.
     "Oh really? Yokada…!" Hihara breathes lightly and gazes at Kahoko’s cute smile,
     "Oh wait! I think forgot my violin sheet music is on the balcony!
     Gomen! I’ll be back soon, sempai, please wait here for me,
     I must’ve left it when I was talking to Len-kun just now…" after explaining, Kahoko quickly runs back into the building.

     Hihara stood where he was, astonished at her forgetfulness, thinking:
     Kaho-chan has these moments too? How adorable…
    
     After standing for a while, he felt tired and found a stone bench to sit on while he waited.
     I wonder what kind of places will inspire her interest… if only we can go to different places together at times.  
    
     While Hihara daydreamed about Kahoko and his private outing, Kahoko arrived at the balcony and bumped clumsily into Azuma who happened to have stayed after school to practice flute.
     "Azuma sem…pai!" surprised, Kahoko exclaimed.
     How unusual! I thought he always had his driver pick him up on time…
     "Yo…Isn’t this Kahoko?" Azuma turns, smiling with his usual gracefulness.
     "Ano…did you see a pile of violin sheet music here, sempai? I left them here just now."
     Kahoko searches with her eye, but didn’t seem to find her lost sheet music.

     "Oh…? Well." Azuma approaches her, his graceful smile turns to an rare evil smirk as he picks up
a few strands of Kahoko’s hair.

     "Sem…sempai!?" Kahoko suppressed her instinct of screaming and turned her fear into a helpless whisper.
     "What’s wrong, Kahoko… I’m just admiring your scared face. You remind me of my sister when she gets caught by my grandmother. Hahaha…"

     Amused, Azuma examines the scared girl closely who’s leaning against the corner of a cement wall.

While this is going on, Hihara is walking up the stairs the lead to the balcony. Hearing 2 people speaking unclearly, he anticipated that Kahoko might’ve found her violin sheet music. He opened the door slowly, wanting to catch a glimpse of her happy moment…

But he was shocked by what entered his sight and ear:

     "Can’t I make you blush like Tsuchiura does? I’ve seen him patting your head anyway."
     Still teasing Kahoko, Azuma didn’t realize his best friend stood a meter behind him.

     "Hi—Hihara sempai…!" Kahoko lets out her regret in another helpless whisper…
What would Hihara sempai think of us now? I must explain to him it’s nothing…!

     In between seconds, Kahoko sees Hihara’s face saddened; like the beautiful sunset that suddenly darkens into nightfall.
     "Ah, Hihara… you haven’t gone home too?" Azuma puts on his smiling mask, covering up casually.

     "Kaho-chan…" Hihara said somewhat weakly and quietly and turned back in a small run.

     I guess I’m not the only one who makes you blush…

I never knew Tsuchiura and Azuma…no, it seems like every one of us has been pretty close with you in some way… among them, I’m just another sempai or guy who makes you blush.

Tsuchiura gives you courage during the first selection, he gives you the courage of who you need to be – as a violinist, as representative student who strive to play for the General Studies Section…


Len-kun can help you directly on what you need to know in terms of violin skills, performing techniques…


Tell you where you need to go
Tell you who you need to be
Tell you what you need to know
Tell you when you’ll need to leave

     I can’t help feeling bitter and jealous.

But everything inside you knows
Says more than what you’ve heard
So much more than empty conversations
Filled with empty words

Since that night I fell on you (and fall for you) by accident, did you blush in front of other guys?



     Hihara paused and smiled sadly,

I remember seeing you blush in front of Azuma not just this time,
Do you know how my heart thumps so nervously when I heard about your “engagement” with him?
And now this…
Oh, what am I doing now… you make me burn and feel troubled at these mysteries…

And you’re on fire
When he’s near you
You’re on fire
When he speaks
You’re on fire
Burning at these mysteries

     I can’t help it.
    Can we have some time alone?


     I guess not even on my finally-free-Friday.

Give me one more time around
Give me one more chance to see
Give me everything you are
Give me one more chance to be... (near you)

Cause everything inside looks like
Everything I hate
You are the hope I have for change
You are the only chance I’ll take

Kaho-chan… it was your performances and conscientiousness that moved me, changed me…furthermore, falling for you. It’s been such a long while since I felt this way.


Lately I kept pondering whether or not I should tell you… because you’re the only one I’m willing to think about confessing.

I’m on fire
When you’re near me
I’m on fire
When you speak
And I’m on fire
Burning at these mysteries
These mysteries...

     I’m falling for you... I’m…

As Hihara’s thoughts pause here, he thought of the English song his friend recommended him lately.

     On Fire… Closing his eyes, Hihara puts his hands to his head and sighs in a troubled way.

I’m standing on the edge of me
I’m standing on the edge


As if trumpet is the only outlet to his troubled thoughts and mood, Hihara opens his trumpet case and raised it to his lips.

Standing next to the Musical Fairy Lili’s statue where he used to play his trumpet in support of who he likes, Hihara played the tunes of his mind on his trumpet, expressing his blues. Blues in love.


     Liking someone is not as easy as I thought…!



金色琴弦 同人圖文 "一首簡單的歌"

金色琴弦 音樂想像系列 圖文同人文
志水x香穗子

一首簡單的歌, 王力宏

給我最喜歡的日野學姊…



最近總是看妳憂愁的神情
想必還在為第三場音樂會台上尷尬的情況備受打擊吧?
想著想著, 這一切, 連我中午待在很少人的圖書館裡都沒辦法專心讀著音樂的知識了…
(失去的 忘記的 我會盡力去彌補 你是我 最珍貴的財富)

我喜歡學姊的笑容…
我想, 微笑是人們最美最燦爛的瞬間吧.
那天, 一個班上的女生對我告白…
她說: "志水君, 我很喜歡你微笑的時候…燦爛的像天使呀..!"

我也想起妳之前看著我無意微笑時也突然愣住了…
現在我想起妳之前說, 我常常都在看書和思考出神的模樣很危險…
我決定以後都要多為妳, 對妳微笑.
(我一直 在思考 讓你了解我的好 卻忘了 常常對你微笑)

好想做點什麼讓妳能再次快樂的奏出那讓我開竅的旋律.
(什麼樣的禮物 能夠永遠記得住 讓幸福 別走得太倉促)


屬於妳特有的, 直穿心靈…忠於自我和音樂之間的天籟.
我迷迷糊糊的那些時候, 總是因為妳的提醒 讓我沒有略過太多周圍發生的美好事物


可是我說不出什麼話來表達 身為妳學弟的感謝.
(這世界很複雜 混淆我想說的話 我不懂 太複雜的文法)

我最近也觀察到, 學長們都對妳特別照顧…


就算我不常說什麼, 在妳眼裡是個迷迷糊糊的一年級生,

我也了解, 他們對妳的傾心…就像我對妳的愛慕.

身為妳的學弟, 能這樣的在妳身邊感受音樂的美好就很幸福了.
(雲和天 蝶和花 從來不需要說話 斷不了 依然日夜牽掛
唱情歌 說情話 只想讓你聽清楚 我愛你 是唯一的傾訴)



我錄了這首昨天拉的簡單的歌… 參考著  "即興作曲本" 寫的.
希望妳會因此開懷&打起精神呀…!

聽 聽 看 吧 . . . 無論如何, 都希望這能傳達我的心意.




寫一首簡單的歌 讓你的心情快樂



生命就像一條河 難免會碰到波折



這一首簡單的歌 並沒有什麼獨特



好像我 那麼的平凡 卻又深刻


- 志水桂一 -

金色琴弦 同人圖文 "可愛女人"

金色琴弦 音樂想像系列
可愛女人 周杰倫 (適用於所有配對)



 










註 (配歌詞的原因)

1坐直升機飛到宇宙去: 曾坐飛機出國留學的有錢少爺
2圖的意外撲倒片段
3土埔: 樓梯間向下墜的日野被抱入土埔懷中/火原: 撲倒片段, 都是因為地吸引力呀!!
4可愛的火原有好幾次因香穗臉紅的片段
5溫柔-發燒靠頭片段, 心疼-手指被劃破片段
6感動&聰明-因為志水可以在香穗學姊的音樂裡聽到發自內心的真實樂章&幫助他找到自己心中的音樂
7讓我瘋狂-讓我情願為妳做任何事, 對妳的感情讓我煩惱
澄清: 香穗實在沒有什麼不好的地方可以說她"壞"耶.. = ="
 

後記: 這是我的第一篇金色琴弦 同人歌詞拙作~~ 本來就只有抱著讓自己開心& 抒發喜歡配對的心情寫的.. :)  圖片部分我只抓了自己存起來的那些… 所以應該配上的適當圖片沒特花時間去找. 配對部分我一開始是十分偏向火原x日野的~ 所以歌詞部分也在他們的部分思考&想像的比較多 不過每位男角剛好都有配到有理的歌詞~~ (我並沒有想包括金弦2的角色. 所以沒有葵, 桐也或兩位師長.學長級的男角, 失望的話抱歉啦~) 希望各位搜尋到看完後還喜歡 ^^

2009年11月14日 星期六

Learn the Rules... & Break Them!

"You need to learn the rules so that you can break them intelligently."
"你需要學會規則才能夠聰明的打破它." (或許翻得不是很好..)

This was taken from one of Matt's favorite quotations - coming from a Design History professor.
(Who is it, Matt? :D)

This lingering concept of the day traced back to one of my long memories...

My mom supported and encouraged me to learn piano since a young age, she thought having some musical inspirations for a child is never a bad thing. In Taiwanese/Chinese concepts, childhood is the best time for learning anything... not only it will inspire a child's interests, learning the piano may also become one of my many interests as well as for self-entertainment (even if I dropped the trainings).

So since kindergarten, I've been attending music courses of the Japanese YAMAHA system (more of a Japanese and Asian (?) scope musical system and tests compared to other ones such as the ABRSM, a more international recognized music and theory exam. (I'm not sure if this one is more known for American society, actually xD - but hopefully Christina Tarn, my musical mentor will find time to explain more as she is one of the participants who earned distinction level!) Nevertheless, YAHAMA's musical education was the basis of my musical journey and pretty much how I came to be the music appreciator I am today.

My piano learning journey wasn't a smooth one, because I'm definately not a very initiating student; most of all, not a good daughter who seem to cherish her opportunities and cultivation from parents.
I remembered how I would always be reminded to practice, practice and practice...
My dad would always say "practice makes perfect", with a grand expectation hoping I would go and be a diligent player..

Of course, besides his encouraging aspects, he would certainly get disappointed and frustrated by my laziness and irritated attitude from not wanting to even 'touch' my piano/keyboard (of earlier times).
I've been beaten out of love. A lot of love... that stems the frustration, disappointment, anger, and expectation from my parents... All of this made sense as I am a 19 year-old by now. Certainly I understood their point of view as parents. Taiwanese parents... whose values and views are rooted from Chinese culture and thoughts, they "want their sons to be dragons, want their daughter to be phoenixes" (望子成龍, 望女成鳳)

But I don't care. I simply didn't like or have the want to touch my keyboard/piano that time.
There wasn't much joy I really got out of it. But based on my progress and potential to keep playing until I can enjoy it, I continued.

During these times, I worked on passing YAMAHA piano exams from grade 9 all the way to 6...(YAMAHA system starts from Grade 9 and counts down to grade 3 or 2, the best record/performing level yet) while preparing for those, my piano teacher trained me with classical based pieces and music scores as fundamental works, as well as practicing scales... to keep it interesting and melodic, at times some pieces from another book of scores.

But even that bored me. By passing grade 7's sight reading with tears, I passed the line. But I knew grade 6 would be problematic. Since failing the grade 6 exam in the YAMAHA system around middle school, my piano teacher only found me more interesting pop scores to play. Yet I was reaching a limit of not wanting to do any of it.

Due to my fluctuating emotions and limit, I stopped - I really resisted having any more things to do with the piano and scores... because I felt trapped.
Trapped by those fingerings I'm adviced to follow that'll make playing easier (supposedly), trapped by classical techniques that seem so crucial to my piano learning (even if I knew it was essential and the MUST of learning)... I rather play "freely".

What do I mean by freely, though? Jam the keys?
Well, I felt frustrated enough several times that I did bang on them... but that's not "free", it's just pure frustration exerted :) .
The freedom only came to me occasionally: I would listen to Taiwanese pop songs and play the melodies by ear on piano keys - to be more exact, it's more like "testing the key and notes". During YAMAHA piano exams, I usually did do better with the aural and play sections anyway; completely out balancing my sight reading skills. Doing this, playing more "freely" according to my wishes in fact did bring me a greater sense of happiness. At least, it makes me dwell on it for hours if the melodies in my mind kept reminding me of songs I can "try" on the piano.

I used to be so distraught while learning piano, abiding the rules, fingerings... all the necessary things that seemed to tie me up like a shapeless rope - but they were also the basis (somewhat) of my freedom when successfully "playing" the pop songs. I suppose rhythm and theory-wise I did break many rules, whether intelligently or not - rules are inseparably necessary in learning; most of all, in need to break free in order to innovate.

Tracing from art history, isn't that what most artists did that led to their fame?

Boccioni, Unique Forms of Coninuity in Space

Nike of the Samothrace, Louvre
The beginning quote can't be applied any better elsewhere other than the arts
(visual, aural, performing, literature, etc.)
Old is new ... ! ;)

Kandinsky, Lyric 1911

"Feel" by Antony Gromly 雕塑: "我是顛覆規則&傳統的楷模!"
Upside down sculpture: "I'm the model for breaking rules and traditions!"

2009年10月31日 星期六

;Halloween; 萬聖節: 宮崎駿動畫相伴 (心之谷&崖上的波妞)

最近作息的不規律真是讓我想直呼 "不可思議",

不過至少不是因為出門party...喝的臉紅紅讓肝辛苦排酒的晚歸.

今天睡了飽飽的起床...吃飽了咖哩,喝足了檸檬味的Arizona綠茶;萬聖節的裝扮想像似乎離我這個80-95%的 "宅女" 無關。 

今天在ATM提錢時到是親眼目睹了美國人的狂歡裝扮,真的是時髦和性感過人!! 不提天氣根本就不能想像&證明 "愛水嗯驚流鼻水"這句話!
一踏出車門就明顯的感受到了10度 (Celcius,攝氏)的低溫,但這些踩著高跟鞋的女孩們各個露胸的露胸,露背的露背,短袖. 迷你裙... 站在寒風中...想想我身穿大衣裹著圍巾,應感到暖和一點,但我只敢到冷颼颼的風直穿進外套裡,這些女孩又是如何忍下來的?

在等的時候看了幾個非美國籍路人也穿得保暖,我才恍然大悟:啊,原來不只是我一個穿很暖~

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今天在Wal-Mart遇到了苦等公車將近兩小時Whitney & Willy, 或許司機們也放假了吧??
因為他們的關係,我也沒機會去晃晃標示大大的 "Costumes" 區域;但助人為快樂之本吧~可以避免花錢買裝扮也好。

像去年一樣,今年的Halloween 我也只是待在充滿暖意的房裡。誰說萬聖節一定要狂歡呢?
就算那股細胞一直都存在,PPStream 豐富節目單早讓我情願看完宮崎駿動畫的感動,也不要出門去哪裡。。。

最近大概看太多動漫,同人配對的心又開始蠢蠢欲動:一直都支持的火影 (雛田&鳴人),到最近才看完的鋼彈 (阿斯蘭&卡嘉莉), (穆&艦長小姐)。







今天的進度是看了幼兒版的puppy love (可愛的人魚公主波妞&小男孩宗介),從中學到愛的真諦 (接受一個人全部的樣貌,不離不棄,互相扶持);還有挑起學第一首英文歌 "Country Roads, Take Me Home"-John Denver 回憶的 "心之谷" / "側耳傾聽"。





兩部片都有不錯的愛情成分,即使題材內容不太雷同;宮崎駿所想傳達的環保意識&保護自然在"崖上的波妞"裡一如往昔;像"天空之城"。"心之谷"描繪出了成長和追求夢想的遲疑. 友誼. 愛情的煩惱. 也有愛情裡互相扶持的感人話語 (參考天澤聖司&月島雯後半段騎單車上坡看日出的對話)。

有趣的是,發現了這部較久以前的"心之谷"似乎為了"貓的報恩"的內容鋪了發展的可能性。
裡面關於公爵貓的故事,是值得和 "貓的報恩"情節交叉研究一下的。

除此宮崎駿之外,我也看了"大智若魚" (Big Fish)這部讀似奇怪的片名,
從中也獲得不少哲理。

曾經聽哪位台北的廣播人說過,"看電影是在短時間裡濃縮他人的人生,即使是虛構的或辦真實的,都有豐富的內涵;用心去體會&看,就和讀故事一樣精彩。"

對於這樣的感想,我十足的同意。 

自己對著螢幕過萬聖節,會空虛嗎?
No, I don't feel hollow at all. (不會呀,我一點也不感到 "空".)

(*Note:  Hallow vs. Hollow.)

我希望未來有小孩的話也可以讓他們多看看宮崎駿的動畫。
比起Hollywood或迪士尼的或許都更有情感的深度&意義。



2009年10月27日 星期二

週五的悠閒blogger之說: 學習上的聯繫 & 秋不要走

一個星期五的悠閒,

讓我可以記下法文課會心一笑的一些時刻.
當我們在練習文法的一些題目時, 我發現教室裡有幾個人都在試著了解為什麼法文文法
是那個樣子 & 句子要怎麼填空.

在英文中, that
在法文裡可以分成 qui / que / dont ... 等

其中一個大四的學生Frank 試著和老師解釋他的想法時, 因為突然發現到他也回到了原本老師的解釋 而突然恍然大悟的脫口而出 "crap!"
氣氛就是如此有趣的東西,
一般來說 "crap" 這個字眼多半是不太雅的, 但比 "shit" 來的好.
通常我總不愛聽人家說些不雅的東西 (雖然有時自己也會暗地的脫口而出), 但在Frank的那個情況下, 以這樣的方式來反映他瞭解時格外的令人發笑.
一笑之下, 就連老師Stephen感慨的開始談起學語言的經驗談...
他說著說著, 突然 "fu*k! {一聲..} sometimes we really don't care!"
引起了一陣喧嘩... 我更是開始大笑!
從非洲國家迦納來的Stephen講話總是很溫和, 最多也不過 "oh boy!"
今天是我頭一次聽他口出驚人之語...可是就連他咒罵時的聲調都很有趣, 會瞬間提高聲調.
(就像他的 "oh boy!" 一樣) 老師都沒講這麼重的話過, 明顯的比起剛剛Frank的笑點更大, 並惹人大笑.

這樣一笑置之惱人文法題目的教室讓我發現了美國學生的煩惱:
原來不只是我從法文裡正統的開始學文法而已, 美國學生也是如此呀!
當我自然的像母語一樣學英文時, 靠的是感覺對不對, 沒有特別的去講究文法的正確性.
也難怪母語是英文的本地學生們更混亂到不行了.

有時會感覺跟美國學生打不成一片的我, 在此時此刻也感受到了大家還是有某種聯繫的.

大家的法文發音或許都不是很好, 會討厭文法也討厭那些音標符號(accents), 但我們都一起在學習&分享這些煩惱之處. After all, we're linked together in such ways.

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一週三堂 二四五上的課 其實並不久, 50分鐘,

不到4:30我就晃出飄雨天灰灰的外語學大樓 Stanley Coulter Hall.
晃著晃著, 突然想到某天下午在 Felix Haas Hall 腳踏車架旁看到的一棵午後陽光下的樹,

那時金黃色的葉子泛著一點葡萄柚橘的樣子看得我痴了... 情不自禁的開始撿了地上的幾片葉子把玩, 帶了幾片回宿舍用膠帶貼成了書籤.

看了看今天還飄著雨, 昨夜下了超大的雨, 那棵樹不會掉光葉子了吧?

念頭一閃, 立刻用單肩甩了背包抵在右側抓出相機.
但走向一棵上半部都空無一葉的熟悉地點時, 心卻像一地的落葉般潮濕&枯萎.

沒過幾天, 一場夜的大雨讓我最喜歡的樹的葉子掉光了. 雪快要來了吧?

真希望秋天還不要那麼早離開.


(this photo above comes from deviantart.)

2009年10月16日 星期五

I met a multicultural beauty in FR212 - Soha

It may seem a bit hard to come across really good and nice melody French songs..
Therefore, I'm pretty thankful for what Aurore showed us in class last week.


Soha, a native French vocalist... who grew up in Marseille (Southern part of France),

Her mother = Sudanese
Her father = Algerian
... uses multiple language lyrics her songs.


The whole style is indescribable... a mix of Jazz and Latin... simply classy & Soha, this charming lady is my recent diva.



Her album "D'ici et D'ailleur"(Here and Elsewhere)


1- Cafe Bleu:

La vie s'en prend à nos rires et à nos paroles en l'air
On apprend à se couvrir en marchant à découvert
Mais où sont passées les îles
Ont-elles coulé sous la mer
Rien de plus facile que d'oublier qu'on espère
Alors si tu te perds


Rejoins-moi au café bleu
Le temps d'une cigarette ou deux
L'éternité ne vaut que pour les amoureux
On dansera au café bleu
Le temps d'une chanson ou deux
Le paradis ne vaut que pour les gens heureux


Il n'y a que dans les livres que l'on peut changer le monde
Il faut aller sur la lune pour voir que la terre est ronde
Mais y'a pas que dans les films qu'on voit des fondus au noir
Je t'ai trouvé dans la lune, j'ai aimé ton histoire
Le reste ça reste à voir

Rejoins-moi au café bleu
Le temps d'une cigarette ou deux
L'éternité ne vaut que pour les amoureux
On dansera au café bleu le temps d'une chanson ou deux
Le paradis ne vaut que pour les gens heureux


2- Soha et Antoine Essertier - Mil Pasos

this sensual melody and beat reminded me of the temporary Latino craze I was in this summer when I got in contact with Salsa, Merengue and Bachata.

Don't you think there's an absolutely alluring feel to this song? Or it's just my imagination? :O

(I'll post the lyrics if I can find it some other time.)


3-Vue de là-bas (the view below)

a sense of nostalgia.. loneliness, it makes me visualize a warm sunset in a Latino country..
a charming lady walking down the little cafes on the streets...
(Once I feel like posting the lyrics I'll post it here.)


4-Tourbillon (serre-moi fort si tu m'aimes)

a very cute video with Soha & a bunch of kids dancing on the streets while singing.

from the subtitle I can tell you it means "Hold Me Tight if You Love Me", as for Tourbillon, http://www.wordreference.com/ translated it as whirlpool/wind. So, now the title makes sense? :)

I also love this song. Full of passion, luring, seductive feeling... if Dirty Dancing 2 Havana Nights had this song in it would fit completely... haha!


5- On ne saura jamais

here's the evidence of Soha mixing various languages in her song as lyrics.
How many can you identify?

French, English, Italian, Spanish... anymore?

[wandering wonderer: I'll share anything that stirs me along this journey. Come and wander/wonder with me...]

Explorer un voyage de passé

http://windgliderat.blogspot.com/

I have to connect my past and present... before I step further into the future.

2009年10月13日 星期二

圖+文的約會 A date between pictures & captions

讓我開始累積回憶... 慢慢倒起照片吧.
Let me start collecting those memories, by going through those photos that are worth a thousand words...

http://www.flickr.com/photos/windcglider/

Unfortunately, I've uploaded too much.. (in other words not being selective enough)
So I'll just paste this for now. The rest of the recent photos I may have to upload them here or dump it on facebook...

2009年9月11日 星期五

C'est comme ça toujours!

有些人生來會演戲有些人會畫畫、算術、說話..


有些事情是天分

有些強求不來


人要曉得自己的角色在哪裡。


這是我朋友凱群在他的新相簿網誌說的話.


我很喜歡他說的這番話,也很欣賞他看事情的角度。

給我了一點 *ding* 的感覺,可說是共鳴吧?


最近的繁瑣的事情在腦海裡形成一片暴風雨,我已經看不見之前充滿陽光希望的天空&在那片藍天下自在的揮灑青春的我。我也沒辦法活出我對藝術的喜愛,碰不了學科的東西;功課看似一片亂七八糟的塗鴉,字間沒有空白,全部亂糟糟的混在一起。


在怎麼樣,我都是個學生,我的本分就是要好好當個學生,好好向自己的興趣學出名堂,

走出痕跡,踏出一道自己的路,可以走向未來,走出方向的路。


可是當健康,心靈健康亮燈時,就算想到達平時的境界,簡簡單單的做好該做的功課&準備,都力不從心。不過,我會好起來的。 我可不會就這樣摔倒,在原地哭著,待在挫折的泥沼掙扎或自哀自憐,(就算有這樣的片刻,我也要振作。)


這學期,我的課都算是順心應手的吧? 雖不能每次都如魚得水,但也要學著如何適應學習。


C'est comme ca toujours! ... 法文老師 Stephen 一故的輕鬆是這句話最好的配音。


沒有藍天,把灰色的天空塗抹一下吧!用你正面的影響力,要怎麼改變現況都可以。


創意讓生活無限美好... 樂觀也是。


之前,ISS Grad orientation 的同事Sarani說,我們的同事Cahya這名字這字在印度文有黑暗之意,

而Cahya說,在印尼文裡是相反,是"光明"。


凡事都有兩面,我只看到你的亮面太久,一翻過來,就顛覆了一切。


I'll make sure I turn things around, live it the way I want it.

2009年9月3日 星期四

茶的情詩 (Tea's Ballad)

茶的情詩
- 張錯

如果我是開水
你是茶葉
那麼你底香郁
必須倚賴我底無味.

讓你底乾枯柔柔的
在我裡面展開,舒散;
讓我底浸潤
舒展你的容顏.

我必須熱,甚至沸
彼此才能相容.

我們必須隱藏
在水裏相覷,相纏,
一盞茶工夫
我倆才決定成一種顏色.

無論你怎麼浮沉
把持不定你
終將緩緩的
(奧,輕輕的)
落下,攢聚
在我最深處

那時候,
你最苦的一滴淚
將是我最甘美的
一口茶.


今天早上早起, 檢查了待會就要報告的ppt後, 隨手拿起從昨夜還放著的剩茶.

忙碌&早起的早晨實在不是我最能品味美好東西的時候, 不過我的味蕾卻像是睡了很飽似的小花,
在陽光的沐浴中伸了個懶腰起來..

啊, 我又想起了這首詩.

雖然在高中時我選了英文文學, 沒有機會接觸這種收斂, 深情又熟悉的中文詩詞,
但我以好奇心跟著其他讀中文文學的人的腳步... 在沒有考試壓力的情況下細細品味.

在快要十點多的時光中, 心感到忙碌中, 留一點生活的自在給自己...

在我小酌一口回甘的茶時, 也融入字句中... 紓解心情&壓力.

2009年9月1日 星期二

想念台灣豐富的藝術資源 (Missing Taiwan's Abundant & Accessible Art Resources)

離開台灣後,我才發現我啟程得很不是時候。

我剛好錯失了可以好好欣賞北美館正要開放的皮克斯動畫展的機會,
也錯過了電影 "天外奇蹟" ,這部我期待許久的Pixar動畫片。

而在美國,這部片早在五月中就上映了。

但規劃好要回來台灣美好溫暖的家,還是要回來好好享受的。

想到電影上映的日期和我計畫離開&返美的時間,我還是因為剛好被夾在兩個錯失的日期中哭笑不得。

離開前,我才慶幸的參與了 在中正紀念堂開展的 "飆未來" Futurism 的記者會,因為時間因素,短短的的繞了一圈,看了一些我還不太了解的未來主義的作品,回頭看來深感可惜當時的不自覺...時常會有人為台灣有限的藝術資源感到婉惜,但現在身在印地安那州的我,不得不說我深深回憶&羨慕起台灣所擁有的藝術資源。

雖然今天上現代藝術的法國女教授才笑道:其實我們比很多學藝術史的學者都還幸運,我們可以去擁有世界上擁有豐富館藏的芝加哥美術館探索,也可以在印地安那波里(印地安那州首都)美術館挖寶!

問題是,我對這些環境是陌生的。

這些館藏&環境不會給我台灣的溫馨感。我每次坐公車路過北美館,都會因為
1> 去採訪過龐畢度, 2> 當過志工,知道它的好,並帶著一絲感激&驕傲的微笑回望它...
可是美國這種讓我覺得 "沒有腳" (請參考 "美國沒有車=沒有腳" 的說詞) 的地方,離我最近的藝術資源就是我的回憶...特別是家的回憶。

我想起雲門舞集 - 小巨蛋的音樂會/演唱會 - 歌劇魅影巡迴演出 - 太陽馬戲團 - 北美館邀請來法國龐畢度中心的典藏 "世外桃源"展 - 義大利來的"飆未來"展 - 之前看過的微笑彩俑... 甚至有近期才在世貿告一段落的國際藝術博覽會!

這一切,就算沒有榮幸全程參與,(或有些很幸運的有,)都讓我深深感到:其實,台灣的藝術資源,比我們想像的多很多。

這些進步&交流也要歸功於那些投入心力與國際藝術資源接軌的人們。當然,不可少了這些願意將作品分享給台灣的人們;或是那些就算在艱辛的環境下也費盡心血推出創作的藝術工作者們。

這些交流&貢獻,都讓台灣民眾享受到高品質的藝術盛宴!

我不想多描述必須錯過這些機會的我有多羨慕,多失落...
我只想讓那些有福氣享受這些活動的人們知道,在台灣的你們,是多麼幸運!

願大家都能把握, 善用&珍惜身邊的資源。 

2009年8月24日 星期一

"Apprivoiser"

"Tame me", the Fox asked the Little Prince.

Well, not that I've read the English version lately.
Back in high school I have actually read The Little Prince in French, and we had to do a presentation based on a chapter of our choice, highlighting the important message / gist of the chapter.

The chapter where Little Prince meets the Fox is my part.

"Apprivoiser", means to tame.

I'm gona switch to French mode. You can use online translators all you want if you want to figure out what I mean, but I'm not sure if you'll get a clear sense of what I'm trying to say.

Mon cher,

Le plus difficile est le "apprivoiser" de coeur, lequel je pense que tu ne puisse pas pour longtemps, si je besoin de la liberte, tu dois laissez-faire.

Maktub.

2009年8月16日 星期日

Finding My Lost Self

I've been troubled with some of my qualities, (whether they be good or bad depending on the situation,) such as being an emotional person: letting sudden thoughts or ideas interrupt me, coming in my way to weaken my concentration on some important tasks; being on the 'childlike' side, like a hyper girl that can never learn maturity and calmness but only when she's on her own... and so, in the few years prior to college, I've been learning and refining myself, getting rid of some 'unwelcomed' qualities and in search for balances.

However, some of these qualities come to help me in a good way. I must say, if I don't have these sensitivity to things, these fleeting thoughts, I wouldn't have been "riding along" with these activities I've found so valuable, memorable & rewarding that I volunteered for. Not to mention the people I meet along with that. It was approximately since March, since I began to dive into all sorts of opportunities for volunteering etc. I tried the World Vision (Taiwan Branch)'s translating volunteer, passed a trial translation to qualify, yet rejected because "enough" as been working (or they prefer the ones who have attended the orientation prior to that).
Been trying for the ISS orientation leader, but only got my final reply until june or so...

AT LEAST, I was on the team. In the process, from lost and not knowing what to do, where to follow, finally finding ways to fit myself into different tasks and working with different people, to being on tasks with unimaginable energy (even to myself) and finding a 'lost self' back.
Not every volunteering activity can make me feel this way.

Little by little, I observed as if I was solving a puzzle, seeing how pieces of me have come together, the me that has once been supressed in the past... to seeing a complete lost me -
or, retrieving myself successfully by doing different things.

Ever since ISS (Intl Students and Scholars) volunteering Check-in and Grad Orientation, I seem to have found a lot of valuable elements. Should I thank those who have inspired me, or thank that it as been this way for me?

Either way... I'm thankful for this collision between us, because when we 'collide',
it seems like the collision helps us let go a bit of ourselves, and bonding's easier.
Being the people person I am, I was activated and became outgoing once more.

And perhaps it's cuz of a guidance light there all along.
i.e. The sun. Yes, the cahya (light) worked.